The physical, the emotional and the spiritual

Yesterday (Friday the 13th of June) was a big day for me:

I started having lower back pain at work in the afternoon and I couldn't sleep last night. I went to the doctor this morning and found that I actually did have a lower back injury. I've never had any huge physical issues like this. But, here I am, on the couch, on pain meds and barely able to lift my glass of water. I'm told 4-6 weeks for a full recovery. Hello mid-40's.

I am seriously thinking that I need to start a yoga class or something. Sit-ups at minimum. I've never been able to keep an exercise regimen for very long - but now it seems essential that I do so. Otherwise I'm not going to be able to keep doing what I want to do. I have an aunt in her late 60's that does yoga, stands on her head, balances in all these crazy positions that I would never be able to maintain. So, I guess if she can do it, I should be able to as well. Maybe. More on that to come, I am sure.

Yesterday I also spent happy hour with a good friend of mine in her 30s who is going through a pretty intense life crisis which includes job issues, relationship issues, family issues and self-esteem issues. In fact, she showed up at the bar crying. This beautiful, talented, creative and loving friend of mine is having a hard time and is taking it out on herself. I remember doing the same to myself. I still do it at times, but WAY less. At some point you've just got to give it up, believe you are worthy and perfect and move on towards what you want and need out of life. I hope she can get to that sooner that I have been able to. I'm still working on it, for heaven's sake.

And I'm currently reading The Power of Now and The Stranger. Not sure where this is leading but I'm trying to focus on the moment. It'll all come together. Or maybe it's the pain killers.